Dear Adel,
You are now 1 year and 2 months old (almost).
I have spent the last 2 days looking for my phone all over the house. The last place I remembered using it was in the living room. I am pretty forgetful and clumsy when it comes to my personal belongings. I have been repeating the scenes of the day I last saw my phone and backtracking all of our steps to no success. How can I loose my phone in my own home??! The phone hunting has led me to look in all the little places and guess what do I find? Your toys! Yes, your little toys are all over the house in corners and under the baskets. This led me to think that hey you might have hid the phone somewhere. Every time I ask you "Adel, where is mama's phone?", you will place you hands on your ear and say hello. There was one time that you actually held my hand and walked me all the way to the house phone and pointed to it. Like "Ha.. there it is!"
I might need to turn the house upside down to find the phone. Sigh. Today has also been pretty stressful since I could not get the cooking and cleaning done. Then you started your little exploration and somehow opened the cabinets in the kitchen and you found a light bulb in a box. You gladly opened it and started swinging and knocking it all around. If this were a movie, there would be some happy song in this scene because you seemed to be dancing somehow. I didn't realize the bulb till it was too late. You took it and hit it to the door and it shattered. I bet you were scared too with the loud sound because it showed when you just stood still, knowing you just got yourself in trouble. Cute.
There is also a habit of undoing whatever I have done for example you like to pull folded clothes, you will also pull clothes that I have already hung to dry and the most annoying thing is when I throw something in the rubbish bin, you will try to get it back. I sigh even when I think of it. I bet this is just curiosity and I am happy that you are developing so well and you are so smart, but this tests my patience. Once, let it go, twice tell you please don't do it. This goes on and on and I find myself asking is it too early to punish you? I wanted you to sit in "naughty corner" but you don't get the concept just yet. So all I do is exhale and say "Ya Allah, please give me patience and strength to get through this!".
No matter what happens, you will never fail to remind me how much I love you. I will tell you that you did something wrong and you have to say sorry and you would immediately hand out your hand to "salam" and ask for forgiveness. I love that kids don't know things like grudges and once its done and we just move on. Need to apply this in my other parts of my life too. I love it when you wake up and you would come to me and give me a big hug. I love you.
Recently I found out a big big news that we will be having another baby. You are going to be a big brother! I have told you about it and I am not too sure how much you actually understand from the conversation but I would say "would you like to give baby a hug?", then you would hug or kiss my belly. I am also trying very hard to explain to you that you need to be gentle with babies and I really hope it goes well. Truth is I am scared. So many things run through my head, "will I be able to cope with both of you?", "where am I going to give birth?", "who is going to help me?", "how about work, should I go back to it now or anytime soon?", and the list goes on and on. I am going to be 30 next year and I have left the workforce for 2 years now and I am in fear that I am falling behind somehow in life. Everybody's life is different and everyone has their own trials and tribulation. We just need to figure things out, somehow.
I am praying that your little baby sister or brother will be strong, smart and charming just like you. I have high hopes for both of you.
Please be good.
Love you.
-Mama-
You are now 1 year and 2 months old (almost).
I have spent the last 2 days looking for my phone all over the house. The last place I remembered using it was in the living room. I am pretty forgetful and clumsy when it comes to my personal belongings. I have been repeating the scenes of the day I last saw my phone and backtracking all of our steps to no success. How can I loose my phone in my own home??! The phone hunting has led me to look in all the little places and guess what do I find? Your toys! Yes, your little toys are all over the house in corners and under the baskets. This led me to think that hey you might have hid the phone somewhere. Every time I ask you "Adel, where is mama's phone?", you will place you hands on your ear and say hello. There was one time that you actually held my hand and walked me all the way to the house phone and pointed to it. Like "Ha.. there it is!"
I might need to turn the house upside down to find the phone. Sigh. Today has also been pretty stressful since I could not get the cooking and cleaning done. Then you started your little exploration and somehow opened the cabinets in the kitchen and you found a light bulb in a box. You gladly opened it and started swinging and knocking it all around. If this were a movie, there would be some happy song in this scene because you seemed to be dancing somehow. I didn't realize the bulb till it was too late. You took it and hit it to the door and it shattered. I bet you were scared too with the loud sound because it showed when you just stood still, knowing you just got yourself in trouble. Cute.
There is also a habit of undoing whatever I have done for example you like to pull folded clothes, you will also pull clothes that I have already hung to dry and the most annoying thing is when I throw something in the rubbish bin, you will try to get it back. I sigh even when I think of it. I bet this is just curiosity and I am happy that you are developing so well and you are so smart, but this tests my patience. Once, let it go, twice tell you please don't do it. This goes on and on and I find myself asking is it too early to punish you? I wanted you to sit in "naughty corner" but you don't get the concept just yet. So all I do is exhale and say "Ya Allah, please give me patience and strength to get through this!".
No matter what happens, you will never fail to remind me how much I love you. I will tell you that you did something wrong and you have to say sorry and you would immediately hand out your hand to "salam" and ask for forgiveness. I love that kids don't know things like grudges and once its done and we just move on. Need to apply this in my other parts of my life too. I love it when you wake up and you would come to me and give me a big hug. I love you.
Recently I found out a big big news that we will be having another baby. You are going to be a big brother! I have told you about it and I am not too sure how much you actually understand from the conversation but I would say "would you like to give baby a hug?", then you would hug or kiss my belly. I am also trying very hard to explain to you that you need to be gentle with babies and I really hope it goes well. Truth is I am scared. So many things run through my head, "will I be able to cope with both of you?", "where am I going to give birth?", "who is going to help me?", "how about work, should I go back to it now or anytime soon?", and the list goes on and on. I am going to be 30 next year and I have left the workforce for 2 years now and I am in fear that I am falling behind somehow in life. Everybody's life is different and everyone has their own trials and tribulation. We just need to figure things out, somehow.
I am praying that your little baby sister or brother will be strong, smart and charming just like you. I have high hopes for both of you.
Please be good.
Love you.
-Mama-
