Dear Adel,
Assalammualaikum sayang. It has been three and a half months since you are with me now. There are so many situations that we have been through together and everyday I keep on learning new things about you and about myself. It is quite interesting that as a mother I am required to teach you things, but somehow you never fail to teach me things as well. I am impress with your strength and with the courage that you have in you. I love that you somehow know what is wrong, you cry to tell me that there is something wrong or that you are uncomfortable and once I fix it, you are back to a bubbly baby. Alhamdulillah for being that amazing baby.
During my pregnancy, you taught me that I could not be in control of everything, that things will happen and I will have to somehow figure out the best way to deal with it. Then you taught me to be patient during the whole delivery process. I never had such determination and strength in my whole entire life but somehow I was determined to get you out as soon as possible, so I spoke to you the whole night through about how I wanted you to help me out. Alhamdullilah for the strength that I had in me that I manage to get you out with two long hard push and without any tears! You have now raised my level of confidence for I now believe that I can achieve wonders but I have to pick the right path first.
Then comes the responsibility and discipline. The change felt immediate although I had nine months to prepare myself mentally for what was to come. I felt that I was thrown into the deep end of the pool the first day in the hospital with you. I knew nothing about diaper changing, swaddling, breast feeding and the list goes on and on but that sense of responsibility kicked in and I just knew that I have to figure things out and it has to be done quickly! I have a habit of procrastinating things but when it comes to you, there is no such thing. If it needs to be done, do it now! Feeding time, diaper change, bath time and sleeping time; I just can't say, "I will do it later." Now Alhamdulillah we have some sort of schedule and I do try to stick to it despite all the traveling. I have also realized the importance of health and I will try my best to stay healthy for you. It would not be fair to you that your mom could not run and catch a ball just because she is overweight. Thank you for accompanying me on my daily walks!
You have also made me into a friendlier person. I used to ask Maktok how she could have random conversations with random strangers all the time. It seems like anywhere she goes people seems to be telling her things. Now I know that it is part of the gift of motherhood but nonetheless I will improve on my communication skills so that you know exactly what I am talking about and I could get you to tell me "things".
Above all, the best lesson you have given me is patience and love. Despite all the hair pulling, kicking, scratching and punching, you never fail to make me smile. The moment you smile, laugh and hold my hand, all the trouble seems to disappear as I go "Aaaahhh" or "Aaawwww". I even love the way you smell! It is a stress reliever.
My doas will always be with you.
Love,
Mama
Assalammualaikum sayang. It has been three and a half months since you are with me now. There are so many situations that we have been through together and everyday I keep on learning new things about you and about myself. It is quite interesting that as a mother I am required to teach you things, but somehow you never fail to teach me things as well. I am impress with your strength and with the courage that you have in you. I love that you somehow know what is wrong, you cry to tell me that there is something wrong or that you are uncomfortable and once I fix it, you are back to a bubbly baby. Alhamdulillah for being that amazing baby.
During my pregnancy, you taught me that I could not be in control of everything, that things will happen and I will have to somehow figure out the best way to deal with it. Then you taught me to be patient during the whole delivery process. I never had such determination and strength in my whole entire life but somehow I was determined to get you out as soon as possible, so I spoke to you the whole night through about how I wanted you to help me out. Alhamdullilah for the strength that I had in me that I manage to get you out with two long hard push and without any tears! You have now raised my level of confidence for I now believe that I can achieve wonders but I have to pick the right path first.
Then comes the responsibility and discipline. The change felt immediate although I had nine months to prepare myself mentally for what was to come. I felt that I was thrown into the deep end of the pool the first day in the hospital with you. I knew nothing about diaper changing, swaddling, breast feeding and the list goes on and on but that sense of responsibility kicked in and I just knew that I have to figure things out and it has to be done quickly! I have a habit of procrastinating things but when it comes to you, there is no such thing. If it needs to be done, do it now! Feeding time, diaper change, bath time and sleeping time; I just can't say, "I will do it later." Now Alhamdulillah we have some sort of schedule and I do try to stick to it despite all the traveling. I have also realized the importance of health and I will try my best to stay healthy for you. It would not be fair to you that your mom could not run and catch a ball just because she is overweight. Thank you for accompanying me on my daily walks!
You have also made me into a friendlier person. I used to ask Maktok how she could have random conversations with random strangers all the time. It seems like anywhere she goes people seems to be telling her things. Now I know that it is part of the gift of motherhood but nonetheless I will improve on my communication skills so that you know exactly what I am talking about and I could get you to tell me "things".
Above all, the best lesson you have given me is patience and love. Despite all the hair pulling, kicking, scratching and punching, you never fail to make me smile. The moment you smile, laugh and hold my hand, all the trouble seems to disappear as I go "Aaaahhh" or "Aaawwww". I even love the way you smell! It is a stress reliever.
My doas will always be with you.
Love,
Mama
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